The cursor had been blinking for almost an hour now. I could’ve opted to sleep more but I still chose to find and express the words that would translate my feelings into clauses so that some of you may understand.

I never thought this would happen to me, not that I have given up before but I just didn’t deem it important to me. I was fixed on staying on my comfort zone, which is to keep good relationships but not fully invest on it. I just decided that it simply was not for me, at the moment.

Soon enough, I did things that I knew some people would not tolerate nor understand. Not because I terribly wanted doing them but more on because I neglected thinking it over and just let it take place. Most of the time, I thought this surely would go down on my list of regrets. What I did not expect was that it was actually what make me happy now.

Morning comes and all I can wish for is to see his face the moment I wake up. And no matter how tiring yesterday was or even how it may be for the day to come, he relieves me. That ecstatic feeling runs through my veins, seeping into my soul and makes me all warm and alive inside, the same feeling of celebrating existence. They may say it sounds like mere infatuation, but these are just words to describe it. It’s just the tip of the iceberg, for honestly, I find no words comparable to my bliss nor clauses to confine it into thoughts people may discover its depth.

Sometimes, I cannot help but feel afraid that if I immerse myself too much, I might drown from it or that he may not be on the other side to pull me out. Those times I try to hold back, to reserve something for myself. But it didn’t feel that much reassuring. It felt like sipping good hot chocolate on a hot summer’s day. So for those times that I dwell on having reservations, I ask myself if that’s what really makes me happy. Accordingly, he never makes me feel exhausted on wanting him hence, I never see him tired of wanting me back.

God knows how grateful I am for having him in my life. Bob Marley is right in saying that one day will come and you’ll meet someone who made today and the rest of the days brighter. And even if it rains, we can kiss and get soaked in the rain, together. :)